All-State Choir Auditions

All-State Audtions for choir are on Wednesday!! Ahh!!! I'm so nervous. My choir director told me that I should try out so I said, "okay". But now I'm wishing that I would have said, "no!". She must have thought I was a pretty good sight reader but I'm not!! I'm awful. I went in for a lesson a couple weeks ago and she had me sight read and it was bad. I couldn't do it. So, now that auditions are on Wednesday I'm starting to get really freaked out. I'll have to practice a lot at the beginning of this week and tonight. I don't think I'll make it but it'll be a good experience and then hopefully if I try out next year I'll make it. Well, I better get going on the practicing! Hope everyone has an awesome week. Spring break is almost here!!!!

State Wrestling Tournament

On Thursday and Friday I went to the wrestling tournament up in the cities at the Xcel Energy Center. It was so exciting! Our guys did awesome. We beat two teams to advance to the championship round. We wrestled Apple Valley last night and we lost. So, that made us second in the state. In my book we got first. Apple Valley recruits people! That is so unfair! Anyways, I'm proud of our wrestlers. They did a really good job and I hope they're not down about losing to Apple Valley. They shouldn't be. I hope we don't get a lot of homework for being gone, too. I can just see all of our teachers giving us tons of homework tomorrow and then we also get all the make-up work. That wouldn't be very fun. So, I had a great, long weekend cheering on the Tigers. They were awesome.

Vague

Do you ever suddenly flash back to a memory and you think about it for awhile and it doesn't seem real anymore?  It feels like you made the memory up and you don't know which memories are real and which ones are counterfeit.  This has been happening to me a lot lately.  I can't tell the difference between my dreams and my memories.  Maybe I'm just over-thinking everything but it's just weird.  Like today I was just sitting on the couch and my cousin Derek's voice just popped into my head.  I remember sitting around the table at my Grandparent's house playing cards.  I was the scorekeeper and I was writing all the player's names on a pad of paper.  I was probably 6 or 7 and my cousin was probably 20-21.  But I just remember him saying, "Hey, look you spelled my name right."  Idk why I remember that.  Maybe I was super proud or something.  Derek.  Pretty easy name.  As I was thinking about this memory I suddenly thought that it was all fake.  That is never happened.  Why?  It's just too weird.  I don't know what to think.  Crazy!

Music Makes Me Lose Control

Yesterday was the Cat'aclysmic show choir's first competition of the season.  It was at West Dubuque High School.  Crazy far away.  Almost 3 and a half hours.  We left at 6 a.m. and got home at 10:30 p.m.  I'm just part of the combo (band for the show choir) but it was still fun.  I thought they did pretty good.  They got 8th out of 13.  We didn't make it into the finals but I was kind of glad.  I know that sounds really bad but I had to work at 5:30 this morning.  If we would have made the finals we wouldn't have have gotten home until 3.  That would have been awful.  I would have died at work! 

Crazy Geezer

My Dad is crazy. Really really crazy. My Mom went out of town this weekend to visit my brother so I've been stuck at home with my dad. There have been a lot of problems. First he left his wallet in my Mom's car so we have no money. I can't believe he forgot it!!! :) I haven't really eaten anything either because we have no food at out house right now. All the bread is gone and I swear all we have is low sodium soup. Gross!!! My Dad buys the low sodium soup because he says it's better for you but then he'll load salt into it. He's pretty dumb. Oh, well. I'm glad my Mom will be home tomorrow. That will be nice.

So confused.

Recently I've been wondering where my life is going?  I  just don't know where I'll be in 5-10 years and that scares me.  Up until now everything has been planned out for me but now it's time for me to make my own decisions.  In middle school all my classes were chosen for me but now I have to decide.  I hate making decisions.  I'm so bad at it.  I'd rather have someone else just tell me what to do.  I'm so scared for the future.  I have no idea what I want to be.  I'm thinking of going into pediatrics but I don't think I'd ever be able to give shots or take blood.  I can barely get my own taken.  I'm so confused.  Oh, well I'm sure I'll figure it out someday.  And I've learned from a lot of people lately that tons of college students go undecided.  So, I still have plenty of time.   

Direct Deposit Devil

Okay, so my work, St. Johns's Nursing Home,  recently changed to direct deposit.  We have to fill out this sheet that sends our money directly into our bank accounts.  This is REQUIRED!!!!  WOW!!!!  Every other week when I got my check I would be so happy.  I got to go to the bank and cash it or put however much I wanted in my savings.  It was really nice.  I felt like a grownup.  :)  But now... we don't get that joy.  We don't get to see our money.  It just goes into our accounts and we might not even know about it.  I wish they wouldn't have switched.  It's a bummer.